6 down, 34 to go or 1 down and 2 to go!

Depending on how or what you want to look at things. Let's start with the 6. Pounds. 6 pounds down and "only" 34 to go. Just 34 so no real big deal but can I do it by July? Maybe. I don't know. Not sure if I really can keep up with this. You know the 1st stage of any diet or lifestyle change is really the honeymoon phase. Where you are all excited, involved in it, working it....then real life sets in. SO I am going to try and stay in that lovely honeymoon stage as long as I can. What am I doing that I lost 6 pounds in one week....Atkins. I know, what? Really? But it isn't like it was way on back when it 1st came out. I actually use Fatsecret.com to keep track of what I am eating. I use 2 websites for recipes and meal ideas. Linda's Low Carb-http://www.genaw.com/lowcarb/index.html and then http://www.ibreatheimhungry.com/ Blog. Both of them are a WEALTH of information. What I really find I am struggling with is the full fat items and the lack of carrots and fruit. Trying hard to change my old Weight Watcher ways but I have to remember too. This is not forever thing. As I get farther along in my weight loss I can add fruit and carrots back in. There are plenty of modified Atkins diet plans out there. Getting in healthy carbs, like fruit and whole grains, instead of the empty ones.

I put my goal or ideal weight, a place where I will be happy with me, at 154. Which is 40 pounds from where I was last week. Now 34 pounds. :) There are a few reasons I am all gun ho again. 1st of all I hate the way I look when I look in the mirror. I hate the way my clothes fit on my body. I hate being naked for my husband. I hate it all. 2nd of all I am still not expecting. I read all of the time that it may help that your body be at a healthy weight, I know that isn't 100% foolproof and that I have been heavy and pregnant before. But this time I am at my heaviest. I know if I did end up with a positive test the 9 months being pregnant will push me over 200. No frickin way. Not going there. E V E R

Third leads me into the 1 down and 2 to go. I made Director with Thirty-One Gifts! I am so excited! Things just really fell into place this past week. So I have one month under my belt and 2 more to go to earn my $1000 bonus. Bonus? Yep, that is a special one for me. All that time I was at Viking-9 years-there was not a ONE bonus. My raise was $2 from the time I started to the time I quit. WTF right? Why not reward your employes that work their butts off! Even without the extra cash I am working towards the bonus FREE product we got this month was amazing!!! I paid the $50 fee to register for National Conference. If you did that early you got a free gift. So why not, I know last year they got something at least very equal in value to that. Then they announced what it was!
That is the Double Zip Cosmetic Bag. Embroidered with the National Conference logo on it. Now this bag is normally only a Hostess item that they can buy for $20. BUT they are not offered the option to personalize it. It retails at $58 so I know that is well worth me signing up early. THEN about March 10th they announced that if we had $1000 in sales for the month, we would get a kit valued at about $100 for FREE. What? Another perk of the business? Seriously you kid....nope. It is on the way. A black rolling tote-retails $185(Hostess only item for $65) a butterfly zipper pouch-$12, a strawberry coin purse-$14(both that and the zipper pouch I have wanted since Day 1!!!) and the blue circle sprial cinch lunch tote-$20. Wow. Over $100 for just doing a great job during the month. Crazy! That is coming on Wed. I just earned it on Friday! Super fast shipping, gotta love that!

So this national conference thing, it is in Atlanta, in Aug. Hotter then hell I am sure it is going to be down there. I have hotel rooms and roomies covered. I was stressing BIG time about how I was going to get there and how cheap it was going to be. Listen, I hate flying. I hate paying for bags, I hate the feeling of going up in the air. I hate heights, I hate the plane bouncing low or high. I love landing. LOL! So the email came across to ride a bus down there. 17 hours with 45 other women....SURE! We are all going the same place, all going to be excited, all going to be on our best behavior...I hope. AND it was about $200 cheaper then flying-not including the the baggage fees or taxes. Ummm, for me it was a no brainer. Gotta drive 4 hours just to get on the bus but I really don't care. It still gives me more money to spend at NC! But the main reason I want to go to NC this year, well I earned it. Yep, the $250 I earned already and I know last year they brought back at least $300 in freebies. That was just a normal consultant. Directors get more. I am a Director. I told myself when I 1st started with 31 that I would go to NC if I made Director. So I have to go. Plus I get to walk across the stage and get my award. Yea! SO I need a cute dress. I have it picked out. I just want to fit into it.
Cute right! And it has butterflies on it. Which is a super cute pattern in the catalog that I am in love with. I want that dress. I don't care if I only wear it once. I want it and I want to look great in it during my huge moment. You know what else I get as a Director...a raise of 3% on anything I sale and 3% on the girls under me. Wow, like a 2nd paycheck! So that is where things are at. I can't wait to see where this is all going to take me. I really do what I love and love what I do!

Thought passes my mind

At least once a day the thought crosses my mind that I need to update. Even if no one is reading it, I think having it updated with my memories may come in handy down the road.

We are TTC still. Nothing as of yet. My cycle is so back and forth, never the same every month and I am tired of wasting money on OPK. In fact it is really pissing me off. I want to lose weight but feel at a stand still since I am know when I do get PG I am going to be gaining anyhow. Although I think this every month with the idea in my head that THIS is the month it is going to happen. THIS is the month I am going to have achy boobs and be gagging when I brush my teeth. Yet this month never comes. So I put off working out until next time. But I don't know if next time will come.

But not to sound hopeful and this is a hell of a lot of TMI coming along...again maybe this is for myself down the road. I did have brown tinge when I did a CM check yesterday. I had slight cramping yesterday, a bit more discharge, a slight off smell during some activity last night and then nothing today. No colors in my CM, no cramps and no smell. I am also not feeling any other symptoms. So really, who the hell knows. If it was implantation bleeding I would of been O around the 5th and yesterday was about the 10th DPO. So we wait and try not to think that every thing is a sign.

So there is the TTC part of my life. The kids are good, great really. I have great kids. Marissa is soooo damn smart, like book smart. Not all there with common sense, yet. We are hoping by changing some things at home we can get that adjusted a bit. Evelyn is great. Cute with a wonderful personality. Sassy though and so much fun. I am pretty lucky that I get to be home with them. AND that C is so supporting when I want to do 31. Which I am promoting up to Director this month. EXCITING!

Here are the girls recently. Actually getting along which is nice.



Maybe I will shoot for posting every other week. Just something to keep track of what is going on with my family and my self.

Superbowl-superweek!

Wow, great commercials and I love the movie previews. Must make time to get a babysitter and must get out to see some of those. The game was so/so, we didn't have a die hard favorite to win, just as long as it wasn't a 1 sided ass kicking.

Super week in that my lovely C has decided to help get a handle of the stress in his life. It is going to be a change and adjustment for all of us. We hope that this is something that opens him up for something greater down the road. He is not quitting his job, just giving up a part of it for now. Not forever but for awhile. Since making the decision we have "practiced" 3 times this week. LOL! I think this is going to work out great cause he is in a better mood already. :)

I am part of a FB group that is trying to get FB to stop pulling pictures of nursing moms. Looking at all of the pictures and the few pictures like the one I posted, really makes me want to do it again, just one last time. I miss it.